Huh

It’s probably not great to want to be numb all the time. Actually, I know it’s not great. And I’m not sure I want that. Want. There’s a word. Want. I want for nothing. Not really. I’m lucky to have what I’ve got. It’s more of a preference. I prefer to be numb all the […]

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Halted

Several months ago, I stopped writing. I allowed attacks, accusations, and endless bombardment to stall me. To fill my head with worry that my words would be used against me during each encounter. My words. My words hurled as proof of my inadequacies. My lack of resilience. My failures. I’ve decided it’s no longer my […]

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Bring It

Grateful for friends and nonjudgmental ER staff. Feeling pretty close to my limit, but we’ll see what tomorrow holds. I can take it.

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Call it what it is

What are you fucking thinking? What are you fucking doing? Who the fuck do you think you are? I don’t know.                 I don’t know.                Just lost. Figure your shit out. There’s only one solution. Climb back on the crazy train. And hang on. You’re not going anywhere. […]

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