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I need to be a rock

I’m really not up for this. To love. I don’t want it. I don’t want to love. I’ll take my pets. My child. My hobbies. Don’t think I don’t love you. I just don’t want to. I want to run away. I want to be gone from this painful place with no light. No kindness. […]

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Big Ideas

Big ideas cancelled by Little distractions Disproportionate focus Taking up all my time To want to I WILL WHEN These little distractions, these Sandstorms, deposit layers of sediment To obscure the path and the plan To need to I ACCOMPLISH NOTHING Dunes soon form Becoming barricades, a gigantic something I cannot see beyond AND CEASE […]

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In the Seeking

I already know I must search out, cobble together, what I need. It’s not right here, so I have to find it. Does it become more valuable because I have to dig it from the ground? Wrench it from the Earth’s clutches? In the seeking, I learn what’s truly desired. Or is it now an […]

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Those Waiting To Break

Each mistake is a promise. A strike. Keeping them at bay. No way to allow yourself anything because you’ve created a shaft, a chute, a well, in which you can fall. No action underpinned with vows. No truth. Scaffolding and a beautiful facade. With so many pounding on the entrance; the hollow center shakes. Echoes. […]

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Middle of Things

        It’s safest for me to walk in the center of the road, far from either side as I can be. Keeping from what’s real. And imagined. Looming in, creating shadows. Silence, all at once golden and terrifying, grates at my ears.Its full weight pressing me to that white dashed line. Unbearable, like the heavy […]

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Halted

Several months ago, I stopped writing. I allowed attacks, accusations, and endless bombardment to stall me. To fill my head with worry that my words would be used against me during each encounter. My words. My words hurled as proof of my inadequacies. My lack of resilience. My failures. I’ve decided it’s no longer my […]

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And Yet

And yet, you choose to defend With blind eyes and closed ears Ignoring your Truth. Hope seeps through your fractured heart. Slowed evermore by Should, like Sand, those tiny glistening bits of quartz, clogging all sense Of self. Drawing a line between protecting and sacrificing, Your search is endless and meaningless. Blanketed by Ought, and […]

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