What it’s like. For you.

Just listen. Don’t fix this twisting fire in my chest. These broken shards at my feet. My astonishment and shock at the actual physical pain. Just watch. Me weep. This hollowed chamber. My empty shell with soundless wails. Torrential and endless. Just sit. Your hand on my heart and hear me.

When Your Time Is Up

You know what you can’t do Without drawing attention? You can’t sprawl out on the sidewalk. Head down, resting on the concrete, watching a bug. Feet up, kicking. I guess you can, if you’re eight or ten. You could lie there for hours rubbing a rock back and forth And no one would bat an […]

You’re Not Happy

What does it mean When someone tells you You’re not happy? Don’t tell me What I am. You’re projecting Clearly. I’m not happy? I’m fine. I am working For what I need. Perhaps you’re better off Considering yourself Instead of others You can’t say who is happy when you don’t know what drives them. You […]

How Change Happens

Stop doing the things you say you disagree with.

Boundaries Chapter One

Boundaries Chapter One “Mom, come on, we’re going to be late.” I’m standing in my mom’s dining room waiting for her again. I’ve been ready to go for over an hour and I tried not saying anything to see if she could just get ready without me telling her to, but clearly she can’t. My […]

On Making Plans

Go ahead. It doesn’t matter. I’ll do what I want and you can fuck off.

Gentle Reminder

Marshmallows are not for breakfast.

My Family Is …

Passive aggressive bullies. Now, Be Nice. Okay … Full of shit. Nope. Try again. My family is full of people trying to make it. Trying to make their life full. Trying to navigate what they need, what they want, what changes their minds, what keeps them going, what pushes against them, what others need, what others […]

Questions About My Behavior

I spend an awful lot of time feeling right. I know everything. I have every answer. I think everyone else in incompetent. Why do I do that? Why do I try to fix? Why don’t I let people tell me the answer? Why don’t I think they’re capable? Why don’t I let them be better […]

Kicked Out

I have been kicked out of many things in my life. Some of them were institutions that promoted love and understanding. I was kicked out of Brownies – that’s the step below Girl Scouts. You know that song you sing with your troop it has the line “My honor is to try and my duty […]