Saturday

This weekend, I found a home for a sweet pup I was fostering. I had her living with me for almost a year. We built trust and safety. We worked on jumping up. We played frisbee. We ran. It was really difficult, but it was also really satisfying. I cried. I laughed. I gave her […]

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What We pick

We’ve had hundreds, Even thousands, Of years and We still haven’t figured it out? Our stories on love. Our lessons. Our deep regrets. Are they Lies? Choices are made each moment. Could it be We really just don’t care? We don’t know how To take care of each other? Or Do we choose not to? […]

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Huh

It’s probably not great to want to be numb all the time. Actually, I know it’s not great. And I’m not sure I want that. Want. There’s a word. Want. I want for nothing. Not really. I’m lucky to have what I’ve got. It’s more of a preference. I prefer to be numb all the […]

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I Wanted to Know You Loved Me

I thought I’d know By the way we spoke I thought I’d know By how we spent our time I thought I’d know By your consideration By the joys we shared By how we coped By how we grieved By how we cared Your passions weren’t mine And mine were garbage. Not knowing myself Makes […]

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I need to be a rock

I’m really not up for this. To love. I don’t want it. I don’t want to love. I’ll take my pets. My child. My hobbies. Don’t think I don’t love you. I just don’t want to. I want to run away. I want to be gone from this painful place with no light. No kindness. […]

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Big Ideas

Big ideas cancelled by Little distractions Disproportionate focus Taking up all my time To want to I WILL WHEN These little distractions, these Sandstorms, deposit layers of sediment To obscure the path and the plan To need to I ACCOMPLISH NOTHING Dunes soon form Becoming barricades, a gigantic something I cannot see beyond AND CEASE […]

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