Huh

It’s probably not great to want to be numb all the time. Actually, I know it’s not great. And I’m not sure I want that. Want. There’s a word. Want. I want for nothing. Not really. I’m lucky to have what I’ve got. It’s more of a preference. I prefer to be numb all the […]

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I Wanted to Know You Loved Me

I thought I’d know By the way we spoke I thought I’d know By how we spent our time I thought I’d know By your consideration By the joys we shared By how we coped By how we grieved By how we cared Your passions weren’t mine And mine were garbage. Not knowing myself Makes […]

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I need to be a rock

I’m really not up for this. To love. I don’t want it. I don’t want to love. I’ll take my pets. My child. My hobbies. Don’t think I don’t love you. I just don’t want to. I want to run away. I want to be gone from this painful place with no light. No kindness. […]

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Big Ideas

Big ideas cancelled by Little distractions Disproportionate focus Taking up all my time To want to I WILL WHEN These little distractions, these Sandstorms, deposit layers of sediment To obscure the path and the plan To need to I ACCOMPLISH NOTHING Dunes soon form Becoming barricades, a gigantic something I cannot see beyond AND CEASE […]

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In the Seeking

I already know I must search out, cobble together, what I need. It’s not right here, so I have to find it. Does it become more valuable because I have to dig it from the ground? Wrench it from the Earth’s clutches? In the seeking, I learn what’s truly desired. Or is it now an […]

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Those Waiting To Break

Each mistake is a promise. A strike. Keeping them at bay. No way to allow yourself anything because you’ve created a shaft, a chute, a well, in which you can fall. No action underpinned with vows. No truth. Scaffolding and a beautiful facade. With so many pounding on the entrance; the hollow center shakes. Echoes. […]

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